I have something wrong with me

OK I have to tell this story, some of you have heard it and some of you have lived it. YEARS ago and I mean years ago back in a small town in Pennsylvania, I was introduced to a food group that I was not to keen on.. ANY one of you guess what it is??? anyway as I was always taught that you eat what is on your plate. NO matter how BAD it is or what it tasted like. Well mine tasted like PASTE. yes PASTE.. oh come on now you all know what it tastes like because you all did it when you were in kindergarden or 1st grade. the good old WHITE school house paste. Well this is what It tasted like to me. PASTE. Well as life has gotten better for me I still have a hard time fixing PASTE. If you have not guessed it by now I am talking about Refried Beans. For many years I have not eatten them because it brings me back to that paste taste. and I have blogged about it before that I have started to like them. Well tonight as I was opening the cans of them for our dinner I found myself eatting them cold and out of the can... YES sick I know but I did it. the worst part is that when I was eatting my dinner I found myself eatting more of them than I would like to admit. And then I saw myself eatting them as I was putting them away after dinner and thinking to my self... "Self" because that is what I call myself. "Self" do you remember when you hated them. and thinking.. there must be something wrong with you. SO yes I will admit now I have something wrong with me.

WHAT I did

OK first off.. Thank you for all the support that I have recieved from My Elder's Quorum President.
Yesterday I had to teach on the word of wisdom. and well this is what I did.
I always teach in the GYM. larger I sit everyone in a circle so there is not a row where people can sleep.
Well I most of the time have a large table in the middle with something on it.
Yesterday IT was a few bottles of wine, beer, sodas coffee, Chocolate drugs, (prescription) and you get the visial here.

So I also had an empty glass and a bottle of FRE. Which is an Alcohol Free (Removed) wine.

I opened it up and Drank it in a wine glass.

I ruffled the feathers of that old mother HEN.

Ok I just want to clear something up here first. Fre has 0.05% per volume of Alcohol.
and Did you know Vanilla Pure Vanilla is 35% Alcohol. I also had that on the table.
And 10% Alochol or 20 Proof is in NyQuil. Just some facts.

so I always have cookies (CHOCOLATE CHIP) and this sunday I pass around Coke, Diet Coke and Spirit.

OK my point was to be made that NOT everything was appearance of evil. OK I did not do a good enough job.

Someone made comment that they were uncomfortable with what I was doing.
Some SISTER reported me to the Bishop
Some Brothern came up to me after the lesson and SAID WOW WOW WOW and said it was awesome.
Some Brother called me and told me I should be ashamed of HOW I taught the lesson and that I should be ashame of myself for owning all of this. and well you know...

When it comes right down to it. I pushed the limit, I am sorry that I caused Hate and discontent, and I will learn from this.

I did Ask to be released but I got a very warm letter back from my President saying you leave I leave. LOL (He will be my Bishop someday soon.)

I learned a lesson here that kept me up most of the night last night.
1st off you should learn from the spirt what you should teach and how you teach.
2nd AVIOD the appearance of Evil
3rd You never know who is watching you and wont get the whole story or all of the facts and REPORT you for unjust caused..
4th BE the example that Christ wants you to be!

Thank you for the many texts from my family that read this and said WHAT in the heck did you do and finally.. I have to give you a story I was going to use.


J.Golden Kimball:
The Prophet once asked Golden to take the new Deseret Sunday School President up the the Brigham City Conference. "His name is David O. McKay. he just got back from the Scottish mission." Golden agreed to escort the nice young fellow.
It was winter, they traveled all day and night by sled in the bitter cold. Finally, they arrived with an hour to spare before the meeting.
Golden thought he was going to die. He reasoned he needed a coffee-bad. So he innocently suggested they go over to the Idle Isle Restaurant for breakfast.
The aroma of hot coffee filled the little diner. WHen the waitress aksed the two gentlemen what they'd like, Brother McKay said, "some ham and eggs and two cups of hot choclate, please."
Golden excused himself and found the waitress who had taken their order. "would you mind putting a little coffee in my hot choclate, please" he asked. She said that would be OK they did it all the time up there.
the waitress came by a minute later with two steaming mugs and said, "Now which one of you wanted coffee in your Hot chocolate?"
Caught, Golden said, "Ah heck, put it in both of them." Brother McKay Laught uncontollably.

OK I did it good this time...

Ok really I did it good this time and well maybe its time for a change.

SO I have been able to teach in the elders quorum for the past few years.. maybe it is a time for me to be released and called to NOTHING...
any way to day I pushed a little to far. I made people uncomfortable. to the part that they said so in class and they sat there the rest of the class with there hand over their face because a I am teaching and well they did not approve about what I was doing.

I taught the word of wisdom. I pushed the bar a little to close for comfort.

I am sorry I taught they way I taught.

Happy St. Patrick's Day

there is something about it that I have always enjoyed St. Patrick's Day. must be the wearing of the green and seeing green is one of my colors that must be what its all about.

Or the fact that I love Holidays so that I can cook my theme meals around certain foods... or it is the fact that it's Abby's birthday.

Happy Birthday Abby. I could not go by without saying happy birthday to you. I remember when we were in college, I believe I made you a chocolate mint cake for your birthday!

Any way I hope you my dear sister have a great year! I hope you celebrate in style this year. I hope you remember that you are loved and that you know how much I love you for your great example and for the person you are!

Love you Abby.... Happy St Patrick Day Birthday to you!

Art214 Photographic Presentation Project

Beauty in Ugliness

Orange

Weathered

Perspective

Graceful movement

Exotic

Reflection

Texture

Language

Decay

Orange

Work

Soft

Power

Delicious

Humorous

Cold

So This is what I feel each of these words mean. I had fun looking over all my pictures... I can not wait until the day I can know how to do more with my pictures. anyone want to scrapbook for me. i have over 7000 pictures!

What's going on....

That was funny... I will tell you I am sitting here just thinking about what to type and I was listening to the tv when ATT had this commerical on and the first thing he says is.. "What's going on." LOL I just typed the same thing.

so what is going on... I really have to tell you I have been on my knees alot in the past few weeks. I have been trying to find out "Who I am"! I have been praying that I could just make it. That I would not have to sell a kindey to make it by. That I would be able to keep the faith that I would have the words I needed when I had something to say and that someone would listen.

I have been praying for my friends and my family and my missionaries and my bishop and well all the people that are in my life. I have been praying that I could have understanding of the important things in life. I have been praying that the spirit would be with me and that those who needed me would be able to turn to me. I have been praying that family and friends and my love ones would be safe. I have been turning my thoughts to this world that we live in. Been praying for our leaders and for the world to be at peace.

I know this is a far reached goal but I have been trying to make scence of what is going on in my world.

What is the meaning and the purpose of life if we can not share what we know with those that we love. I have been very HAPPY.. VERY true. I am not on any drugs to make me HAPPY, I have just been so postive since I turned 40. YEAH I know... what have I been drinking. BESIDES the water that I have sucked down in the past few days.

I been studing more in the gospels. I am trying to be that better teacher. I really had to laugh when last week (3rd Sunday). I was so prepared to teach and we had Ward Conference and I did not have to teach. I quess this is where I learned a few more lessons in my life.

It is coming faster and faster that the School year is coming closer and closer to an end.. and I will be once again Family-less.

I know as odd as it sounds and for the few years they have been gone.. I have not had my Izzy and Theo in my life and I have been filling the gap but it is still hard for me to know that I have become so attacted to some more cute little one in my life and they will be leaving.

BUT with being said... I know that I have more to met and more to understand. But I have been trying to remember this to will pass.

but I have been blessed with some super super super super people.. WHICH I want them to know that they are prayed for each day and that I would do anything for each one of them.

I do wish sometimes I lived closer to family. BUT YES that is a big BUT... I am happy where I am with my life right now and where I am going.

It has been so fun that everytime I tell anyone that I am back in school, that they get excited for what I am doing and then when they say to me what are you going to do... and I say TEACH... I get OMG you would make a great teacher and why have you waited so long.

so here it is.. I am 40, trying to get a new life and learning as much as I can!

I went to a play tonight. and it show me something. It was super and I so enjoyed it and it was so funny that Magda, had bougth a friend with her and when she went to introduce me.. I knew her and a big hug was offered and we sat there talking as if we just saw each other yesterday.
and then to learn that was what the play was about. Friendship

FRIENDSHIP has always ment something to me. I have some wonderful friends. My best Friend for Life will always be JEN. She has been in my life for over 25 years. knowing everything that has every happened in my life. Jen has been there.

It was funny because right before I went to this musical tonight I was chatting with her and we always sign off with Love you and Love you too. it is funny because that was what that musical was all about.

I have had some wonderful friends that have come into my life and they leave but we still talk and we still share some wonderful thing. Ben and Becca have been a couple that I will always be thankful for. I just which Ben would have just left me as a church mouse but NOPE.. he had to make me into this big old RAT... LOL. Rat is a good one kinda of like Templeton in Charlotte's web.

Then we have one person... that taught me to have self-esteme and to have faith and to be who I am. That would have been MATT! I know that I have not always been there for him. But it is fun to see that no matter what happens.. he is always there and always has the kindest words to say.

Now As I was driving home for this musical tonight... I wished that they would have cut out some of the bad words. BUT I know that it's just life, and I understand. I was thinking... wow Scott you have come a long way and have done some wonderful things with your life.
You have been living the life that you have been given. You teach, you learn, you pray, you study and above all you love.

WHY do I do what I do? WHY am I the way that I am... WELL that came from two parents that taught me what they had to teach me. Mother leaving me way to early and DADDY... WELL as much as any young man and his father can love each other.. I loved him when he was with mother and the good time.

I have learned many lessons from both of them. I have no regrets of who my parents were and what they taught me. I am grateful however that I have 2 sets of parents. The ones that gave me life and the ones that taught me life.

Some people dont understand it.... But I will be grateful for Linda and Bob... for leaving me call them mom and dad and for all of the Davis Kids for leaving me be a big brother to each of them and to be uncle Scott. and for the love they offer me and the prayers that are offered to me by each of them.

I dont think people understand my life. I was placed here on this earth to teach and touch people. OH I will never be a great SAINT. Meaning a Mother Teresa or a Oprah or well you know what.... I am going to be Scott Leitch and I will be who I am.

I have had some really touching things happen to me. The Temple was one of them and I had a minute that I knew why I was there and what the purpose of life is.

Mom and I always say when we are in the temple we always have that minute and we always say this is what it is all about and worth it. As Sister Romish and I was sitting in the temple the other night. I turned to her as we were sitting a few rows from the back and I said... You know Ann... No matter what happens or what we do.. This is what Heaven is going to look like no matter what row you are sitting in!

I hope that I made sence in this post tonight... I have been all over the place but I think that I am learning who I am and where I am going.

I want you all to know that I do love you. I love you for who you are and what you have taught me. I love you for the lessons you give and for the fact that I learn and still learning from the words you say.

God Speed everyone.

What have I been up too

What have I been up too...this week has been busy with VALENTINE's day. Just another day to waste more money. WOW Someone was smart when they created this holiday. YEAH I am not a fan and well.. That is that. I worked with Yvette most of the week in floral so it has been a long week.

I think my highlight of the week was when Cam and Lane brought Mallory to work on Sunday to see me because I was not at church and Mallory was having issues with me not being there. VERY VERY special. I have the best friends.

Sunday NIght I took Mallory and Saydee their Valentine's day gifts over to them. It reminded me of Taking stuff to Theo and Izzy.. I miss my kids.

Other than that I had a wonderful night Thursday night at the temple... I think it was one of the first times that it ment the world to me.

Big Bertha cost me $145 for a $5 dollar part. Said that my car is still good but I need to look for new one.

School is still going... and Trying to get into my new classes now but besides that... NOT much going on in this puppy's life.