I am as old as a TREE

I am as old as a TREE

Thursday, June 24, 2010

it just keeps going..

I have been one blessed person and I am still being blessed.

I earned 15 credits with a 2.o GPA holy cow that's Just awesome!! its been 12 years since I have been in school.. 12 years...

I have to say one thing, the class that I really LOVED, REALLY REALLY REALLY Loved, turned out to be the class that I ended up not doing the best in. I am so ashamed that I only got a 0.8 in the class... I have not had time to email yet to ask what that is all about... I was at every class but 2. I turned in every assignment and I went over board on all the projects.. I am a little upset. however I got the 5 credits for the class.

maybe it was not the subject that I should have taken but it just really really really makes me mad! OH well its over with.

So looking back a few days, Sunday was my lesson on atonement. Besides the DVD not working and I asked the wrong question and that just got me off to a bad start... My lesson over all came out good as normal. THANK goodness I have the spirit with me when I teach.

Sunday I was asked to stand in on a baby blessing. It ment something to me. The Surtark's blessed little Rhett and well it was just the sweetest moment in my life... Thank you Ted for asking me. You have been a true friend and I am so glad I was able to be apart of your families life.

Tender mercies :)

Monday, June 21, 2010

tender mercies

Been learning alot about the little tender mercies that happen in life.

I want to say more on this but I had one of them today when I was given a little thank you note.

Than you so so much for being so generous to us. (Missionaries) I really appreciate that you let us do our laurdry at your place, that really helps us save a lote of time and money. and the food you make is always amazing.
THe other day I learned a great lesson from you. I'm thankful that you said the thing I really needed to hear. You said that it doesn't maatter how much you dislike your companion, you two probably stood together and promosed that you would help each other in this earth life in the pre-mortal state.
That was a great and spiritual lesson I learned from you, I just wanted you to know how much personally I appreciate your kindness and example.
Thank You
Elder Lee

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Happy Father's Day

To all those men out there Happy Father's Day.

Dad I just wanted to wish you a Happy Father's Day. Thank you for being the example you are and for always being there.

Now today Thursday June 17th has been one of those days of catch up... REALLY I got out there and mowed the lawn, I dug up some plants and seprated them and planted them... this year I have to do whatever it takes to take care of my yard the cheap way..

Tuesday I had a case of Food Poison... Spent about 5 hours in the ER... not a good thing.
Lucky for me School was done on monday.

I am feeling alot better today.

well that's a quick update for now....


Monday, June 14, 2010

I did it, I did it, Oh YES I did it!

15 credits under my belt. I will know my grades at the end of the week but I did it. I am so excited. YES!!!
I have two weeks off from school before I start back again. YEAH I know I am going to suffer but I have to go back.
Please understand I would love to be working full time but when I went back to school and came back to work after my knee surgery, I was told point blank... "THERE are no hours for you". So with that being said. School is the only answer!!!

I will be spending my days in school.

So this summer I will be taking a history class.. Pacific Northwest history.. I can hardly wait. I love my Seattle.

Side note... As much as I love you mother.... I need to be staying here in Seattle... It's HOME!! LOVE YOU

I love the fact that I love seattle so much that I need to learn more about where I live. I hope I get that out of this class and it counts as a history class I need to take. :)

I have been thinking alot about what I am to be doing with my life... where am I going with my life...and what is it meaning to me...

I have a good idea of what I am to be doing.. and Will keep that under my hat until I find out if I can do it.

I have never been an A student... even when it came to cooking classes I was a C student.. I did pass most of my classes and some came easier than others. I think if i throw myself into something I can do almost anything...

Mother threw me into the pool and thats the only way I learned how to swim... even if she lost a finger nail or two she taught me.

I gave it my best effort. I know right there Is a negative. best effort.. POOR. VERY POOR Christ gave more than his best effort.

But we are talking Scott here. I loved the classes I learned from. I put forth almost everything I had and learned so much. I think this is why I want to continue and go on. Only I am the only person that can stand in the way of me being who I am and what I am and where I am going.

So I know I should listening to what I preach..I just called Brenda and we were talking for a minute about what each of us was doing and I could tell she was a little upset, saying Nathinel still had projects do before the last day of class and I could almost here her upsetness. and I said fast...

"remember I never said it was easy I just said it would be worth it". I know I know I have been typing stuff all day and to think that I am the one that made the comment to someone else.. I need to take my own advice.

I do have an easy life, I am the one to make it hard. I am the one that could and would or will make it better.

I am excited I am in School and I am excited for the next step... Remember I am the one who will make my life worth it!

Love Ya

Thursday, June 10, 2010

I am doing ok!

So I will first state that I think that I might stress out a little to much over little details. Little details that sometime are BIG details and they matter. So here is a list of what has been going on with me this past week.
  1. Group Project
  2. MRI
  3. Crown on Front Tooth
  4. Dr's Appointment
  5. Finals

Ok most of this happened today LOL as I was texting mother today after my MRI on my neck and head I made the comment to her' "now we will see who is really Crazy"

I am still having massive headache's and neck pains from my car accident. My Physical Therapist says he believes it is because I went back to school. And seeing that I might be doing more looking down at books is effecting my neck. But he can not be sure. When he pushed down on my head I had the same pain that the Chiropractor when she pushed down to do a test.. and well that is a bad sign.

So today I started at 8 am, I went to the Dr's for the headache and pain and now I am on new meds to help with the pain which I am not happy about but this too will pass..

by the time I got home it was 5 pm tonight and I was a little tired.

SO I wanted to go out for lunch but no one was free, so I missed out on that, thank goodness.. I had no real plans because on Tuesday I went to the denist to get the crown fix on my front tooth and it was not the right fit and well today I was eatting and well sure enough.. it came loose. YES can you believe this I could not... so it was back to the denist.

SO what made this week bad was the fact that I had 4 weeks to do a group project and it turned out that monday night we still did not have a group project done. we started out with 4 and one dropped out with all of our notes, and the other two, became sick and well.. I was just about sick to my stomach knowing that Wednesday morning there was nothing I could do to make sure this project was going to happen. Monday both people never called me back or emailed me, until about midnight are we meeting tomorrow... STRESS YES, so Tuesday we met for an hour I gave what I had and went home and sent more stuff over. and was told I will text you at 6 and we can go from there.. 6, came and went and it wasnt until 10:51 can you send me all that you have... HELLO.. I JUST DID... so resent it. so I waited.. getting a sicker and sicker that scott has nothing to turn in... what happened 6:30 AM oh my printer is not working... thinking here your kidding me... can you print stuff off.. YES hello send it to me.. forty more emails back and forth and I had it printed.. all the while saying meet you at kinko's to finish.. so she said she would... she made the comment this whole time that she is this super woman who loves to scrapbook and that she would make it awesome......... got to kinko's to find that we were putting white paper with words on a small amount of color next to another piece of paper... OH MY GOODNESS... really...

so we taped it together and I head to the school. we were to have them there at 8 AM so I go to sign in... WE HAD NOT SIGNED UP!!!! I was told that we never signed up... LOL really really.

So nice thing was there was plenty of room.

Now I have learned a few things here...

  1. Group Projects never work
  2. YOU must take charge
  3. Never Never Never rely on someone else
  4. DO IT yourself
  5. Make sure you know what your talking about

so I leave it to a group. WE will see if we get a C on it. I will be happy.

So YES I was up at 430 stressing over this I made myself sick.. I came home and went back to bed. getting up at noon to go to class to stand by a half done project. NO one looked at it. NO one cared... I was so upset. Really.. THis is not the work of Scott Leitch

maybe i have to say here that going back to school as an older adult really is something good. YOU are more prepared and you learn alot more.

And today all I wanted to do was sleep but that sure did not happen...

Anyway then to top it all off... I have some wonderful friends.

I am hitting the point that the hours are not coming to me at work and I am not getting the $$$ like I use to and well the bills are just getting paid and well I was told last sunday night at dinner by my elder's quorum president that there will be no more dinner at scott's house, unless people can start to help with the cost or do it as a pot luck...

Yes this was very painful to me. REALLY I was so upset, I need this family unitiy in my home. I need my friends I need my kids.. I love being Uncle Scott..

When he started talking to me about it I said please we cant talk about this right now.. REALLY I cant deal with this.. BINGO I just got it.. right this minute I just got it... Atonement... as I am writing this I got it.. I really got it.. bear with me as I write.

Our brother Jesus Christ died for each of us as an example. HE gave his life, he taught lessons, the few loaves and fishes.. (BREAD I have made) I am not comparing myself to Christ, but bear with me.. I have just seen the examples. I was trying to feed people because I felt they were in need of something, and I just got it they were in need of a few good friends. THey have taught me something here. THey have taught me that I needed them just as much as they needed me.

When the Ben and Becca left, my heart was broken, they was this hole in my heart that needed to be filled. Ben and I had talked every saturday and sunday night at the hotel, while he was working there, I would take him food. Ben saved my life... he was the cause to what my effect would be. (see a pattern here)

When they left i was heart broken because I did not get to know them sooner or better, I spent every holiday almost with them. READ PAST BLOGS, but here is what i am saying I was to be taught something here. I was to learn that who I was... I was to go forth with a few loaves and fishes and teach and to learn... I am...

I was told that I would never know what my teaching would mean, and i just got it... maybe.. LOL

I remember reading email from Ben saying Theo was saying "going to Gcott's house" while they were in IOWA

and then ABby DeBell made the comment on sunday that Ellie was mad that they were not coming to dinner.. and abby said "Scott I hope you know how much you are loved"

Is this an example of the atonement?

OK I lost train of thought now....

back to me writing.. I know that sometimes when things happen its for a reason.. I am not sure why but it happens.. Thanks everyone for your love and support.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Bad day part 2

So I had my melt down last night.. today I am doing a little better.... I do want to address that sometimes life just happens.

So today I went to see one of my teachers and found out that I am not doing as bad as I was feeling and that I just have to keep doing what I am doing.

I can handle this.

NOW I got to work today to find out I have no hours next week!! Lucky for me The floral manager went to bat for me and well I have a total of 16 hours.

I went from a 40 hour person to 16. I am stressing a little and I just have to keep up the faith.
this to will past.

So that is just my news for now..
this too will pass!!!

Thursday, June 3, 2010

So you had a BAD day, Laugh!

so today has been one of those days that I personally dont want to deal with anymore. did i make the right choice in going back to school. am i doing what i was set out to do.. I had so many high's today that maybe it is time to come down off my high... for some odd reason... I started to hit a low. I am laughing and crying and laughing and crying and well you would think I was on some kind of meds.. really I am having a bad day. I just wish i could see the whole picture... really is it that important to me.. is this really really what I want.

I think the stress is getting to me.. LOL yeah my world just feels like it is falling apart right now and I am about to loose everything I have build up and well I am feeling I am having a bad day... I know this is not making any scence.. trust me.. It isnt but i had to type it out.

I can do this It might be I am over looking something very important!! I am happy but what is with this...

Its just seems like the last 9 months... my world has fallen apart.. LOL my goodness I have my life, I have a family and friends that love me but for some odd reason... today is the day that things just started falling apart... LOL I wish you could see me right now.. I should take a picture and you would be laughing at me. OH my I am having a bad day...what am i to be learning from this...

Ok I have listened to the song over and over and over for the past 15 minutes.. LOL you have to see the humor in this... PLEASE see the humor in this because I need someone to laugh with me.

a few years ago when american Idol played this song when the contestant were voted off it became my all time favorite song. Daniel Powter's So you had a bad!

Where is the moment we needed the most,
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's neem way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on
Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
you say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and your go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Will you need a blue sky holiday?
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day!
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
and the wold thing turns out wrong
you might not make it back and you know
that you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day!
really I just had a bad day.... What more do you want from me.. My house is falling apart.. My life is up and down and well.... I am just , I am just...
JUST falling into my life...
Here's how bad it was today.. I had to take some lease papers up to mr muhammad, at the resturant. here are 4 missionaires... I made a small joke "are you in the right area" the mission boundaries are so thin in that area. I love my missionaries.. I love the fact that I served a mission. I love the fact that we have missionaires willing to give 2 years of there lives. Called from our wonderful heavenly father to serve. so I started to talk to them.. I think it was the cockiness of one of them that turned me off. I asked how the mission was doing.. Maybe it was because I am in the Seattle Mission and they were in the Everett Mission. and maybe it was the fact that I am in the Seattle Area.. I dont know.. But I love my missionaies. If when we were talking did not turn me sour for a minute. I made comment that I always joke around with my missionaires that sometime we end up having people join the church for the welfare system. and the one missionary said that's up to the Lord and them to worry about not us. which yes soured me for a minute.. SEE I was thinking It would be fun to take them in and have lunch on me, when I first saw them.. after that comment I said well elder dont forget its not just them that will be judged.. and I said its also my tithing and your tithing that helps them. and I did not want to fight until "WET HORNET" the elder said I take it you did not listen to conference and President's Uchtdorf talk about CANNED MORMONS.. so I will have to admit I dont remember this talk and now have to repent because I dont know what it said.. I did say very politily, I did watch conference and I did not remember that talk.. and continued to say I hope you have a good day. I had to walk away.. I really felt they wanted to pick a fight with a member... maybe this is why I was having a bad day.. I dont know...
But I think that my bad day happened and I am allowed to have one.
Ok I am going off on things now and dont know what I am talking about anymore so I am going to bed!!!