Something is wrong with me......!

for some odd reason.. I am writing again this wonderful Memorial day! I think for some odd reason the Lord is going to use me for something big or something important here soon. I have been making the comment that I am so glad I am no longer with the news letter and that I was praying that my time is up and well... LOL the new sister called and said.. CAN YOU HELP ME!!! LOL REALLY.. The bishop used a phrase that mother said is not in our voculabary.. "BURNT OUT" he said he was thinking I was getting BURNT OUT over this news letter.. Its not that I am.. Its just I spend a lot of time working on it in a very short amount of time.

SO I think for some odd reason I am reading a lot more and I am preparing for my lesson on the 20th of June. It's on the atonement... so I am spending alot of time reading and studing this topic. So maybe its why I am feeling the way I am.

Oh on a side not... anyone with extra special feelings of thoughts on this topic... please email me them. I have 20 days.

lost train of thought here.. OK

Happy Memorial Day

I remember Memorial Day as the Decoration Day. I know I am dating myself here. But It was called Decoration Day when you would go to the Graves of those you loved and Decorate the Grave. I would always go with my mother back to the cemetary to decorate the graves of her parents and grandparents. I remembered that Mother would always take this glass vase back that her brother asked her to make sure it got on their mothers grave each year. Uncle Miles died in 1976 I do not remember him that well but I do remember this glass vase. sealed inside were silk flowers that mother would take back each year. We always made two trips back. One was on Friday coming home from the store we would swing by to drop this vase off and then once on monday to see who had brought flowers up the graves.... maybe it was my mother was nosing and want to see if her family brought flowers up? I dont know it was just that we always did the same thing every year. and then about a month later we would stop by again and pick up this glass vase and take it home and there it sat in storage until the following year.

I remember one year mother had the flowers changed in it to hot pink and yellow and I think blue carnation.. I can remember the hot pink and yellow. she was so disappointed in the work.. wow if she could see the creations I do now.

I just remember it was such a big deal. Back East things are a little different then what they are out west. Memorial Day was just that. you knew that the peonies were to be blooming the iris were just coming out and the lilic were just about over but you still had these items for memorial day.

Now looking back at it, it ment something. I was told that they use to have pinic all day and that they would have them at the cemetary. To celebrate the day.

I can only say I have not been to the cemetary on memorial day in some time. maybe one of these years that will have to be the holiday I spend back east. When I do go back east I try to make sure I at least stop by and say hello. Yes I can hear patty say it now your nuts and they are not there... but for me, its a resting space for them.

I am not sure why but I feel something there when I step on that hollow ground.

When Jen and I were in Hawaii.. and we went to the punch bowl cemetary and we were walking around. It was a hollow place.. and Jen said to me when we were back at the car did you hear that. I said what, you did not hear that she said I said WHAT... I wish we would have taken an extra minute to stay there.

Its the same thing I feel when I go to cemetarys, I love the history... I love the idea that there is a historal setting happened with this person...

NOW ABBY I am going to write about Naki here so you might want to stop reading...

This past week I have been going over my past blogs.. I have grown alot and have learned alot and well.. I was reading a blog and the comment was made from Naki about being prepared and such a good teacher and well I just started to cry.. and then I went to his facebook page and was reading wonderful comments that people still write about him and as I am looking over this I pull up pictures of his funeral....

and as odd as this might sound... I see a piece of history, I cant really put my finger on it but I see this historial event.. I know you are all saying scott your loosing it.. but I am seeing this amazing story..

Not only with Naki, and my parents and loved ones but I am seeing this giant puzzle.. am I making any scents to anyone????

I remember the day that Linda and I are helping Matt do his Eagle Scout project and we are writing down names (WHICH MOTHER DO YOU HAVE THOSE CARDS OR DO I)? and We come across this grave and for years I have walked by it for years as a kid I played on it.. and it was this grave and it said something to the fact that here was this little child and the best I can remember fell off the wagon and was ran over... (mother do you remember this)?

I can tell you it was of white stone and has a white bridalvail bush planted next to it... I remember mother's comment that how great will be the day when these earthly bodies are reunited with there spirit bodies (she also freaked me out at this point) but I remember this so much in detail...

I can remember Old Lady Violet Kerstetter, who lived next door to us, she had one son, and he was killed by a car, and I remember as a young child looking at a picture Violet had of his coffin and all the flowers around it... the pain she must have had, to know that her little child was no longer with her in this life.

I can remember our next door neighbors the Tice's that had a total of 8 kids but only 3 of them lived. I was told when I was younger that 2 of the children were burned in a bad fire. and that there little brother watched it happen. I dont know all the details of all that, just what mother would say...

Do you think that the life as after we die as we have been taught is going to be full of so much joy... teaching moments, lessons we will have to learn? I have been taught that its going to be one big reunion with all those we have know and lived by and lived with and wow...
I going on and on and yet there is a reason for this and I am not sure what it is yet.

and then we come to what we know Memorial Day as today... The RED, WHITE and the BLUE, the flags at the cemetaries. the remembering of those who have served us and has died for us to make this land the land of the free...

God Bless America!!!

As I say this... It's not just those who have faught in a war or over seas or on the grounds of America that we honor... IT'S all those who have faught a good fight. It's the Arlene's, its the Jim's its the Naki's, its the Frank's and the Sarah's and the list is to long ... They have faught a fight for us. They have a lesson to teach us. they have helped pave the way for US... It's a young boy at the age of 14 that knelt down in a grove a trees and prayed to know which church was the right church...

It the The Savior, who gave his life for us so that we could be!

I hope this writing is clear and you understand what I was trying to say... because and hour has gone by since I started to write.... Understand that I have a deep love for those who have gone before me and that I have a Great love for those who have made this the land of the free... and that I love the fact that i get to Honor those that I love.

God Bless Each and everyone of you!!!!!

Until we meet again

I just love this clip... even if you dont believe this says it all.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JiRc84kihRM

if you cant pull it up got to youtube search until we meet again, president monson

Smile the world needs one.

Yup.. thats right who needs a sour puss face when you can have a smile. ..

SO I have some things I must say.. I get this facebook comment from Ginny that she ran her first 10 K. very exciting for her and I comment back how proud I was of her, her comment back was she did it with Katie and Abby.. WHAT a team. WHAT a wonderful support system FAMILY is. WAY to go Sisters.. I am so proud of each of you!!!!!

Last night around 8 I got another Text, from Ted and Shelby Surtaik that Ted was sitting in the labor and delivery room waiting for Baby to come looking out the window, he says" I have a Perfect view of husky stadium, this guy better be a football stud."

I had to chuckle.. If he is anything like his father yes he will be a sports fan... we are still waiting to hear word if he came last night?

You know what I love the best about my life is that I have been blessed with so many people in my lives that I love being Uncle Scott!!! Thank you all for being able to provide me with that blessing... Like I always say, Let uncle scott feed them.. well with sugar and then send them home. LOVE IT!!

I really do have an awesome life and as I was Reading Jen's blog this morning.. I have to tell her that I am living my life. I am so glad I have been blessed with her in my life and that we have had so many fun times together and many more together...

I dont know why I am in that kind of mood.. I am kinda of excited that I think my newsletter days are coming to an end. I texted Ben early today as I was sitting at the church printing out the last copy of the news letter.. thinking how many hours I have spent in the church library.. I said to Ben, Tell becca I am mad at her because here I sit printing off yet another news letter. LOL.. I would have been done with all news letters if Becca did not ask me to help her... LOL and then when she was released the new sister asked Becca how she did it and said SCOTT LEITCH of course. so.... she has been released and I am just keeping hope that I am done. It's not that it I did the work of calling people and emailing people or haunting people... It was I just put it all to gether and would give a copy to either person and then I was done.. but sometimes it would be me at the church.. Oh Becca and Ben... I know what a stress it was on you. I love you guys deeply.

and one last thing on Ben and Becca... Just so everyone know... I really do miss them!!! :( Tears in eyes here.... It was nice to talk to Ben for about a half hour the other night!!!

anyway.. i now have lost tract of what I was talking about so must sign off until I remember!!!

I did it, I did it

SO ever since mother and I had this little bet back in PA of giving blood. I have not been a fan of it.
Well I quess I should say I always am willing to give but I can never get past the first prick of the needle. and thats the one they prick your finger to see your iron count. 14 yesterday.

So I knew it was going to happen and felt yesterday was going to be the day I gave blood. Sure enought. I did it.

I started out drinking a lot of water. and I had a doctor's appointment where I got a shot to help with the neck pain. and well I was not a happy camper where they shot me.

so after taking a nap and going to school and doing little things I said I was going to give blood.

I had eatten a cheese burger and drank another gallon of water and off to the stake center to give blood.

Bishop asked that we get 100 people from our ward there. well we had 20. 20 out of the 50 people there were from our ward. NICE.. anyway I got past the prick and they put me on the table, ice packs around the neck and well I did it. I gave my pint of blood.

we will see what september will bring?

Wow what a Sunday

So I will have to say first thing is what a blessing it was today for me to talk. As I typed out in the early blog, the story I used.



I do not know what I said. I just know that I started out with being a church mouse. I made comment on being in the back ground and well I met Ann Romish.



I made comment on how much I loved the Crosby family. and the blessing they are in my life.



I know that I commented on Family Home Evening.



also commented on getting kicked out of the single adult wards and having to choose and I chose the 3rd ward and I made comment that I went from being a single adult to ADULT. (everyone laught about that)

I just know I had a lot of people come up afterwards and say wow awesome talk.. thats about all i can tell you about it.

Talk on Sunday

the comment was made last sunday when they found out that I am speaking tomorrow are you making cookies for everyone. NO NO NO.. that is just a 3rd Sunday Elder's Quorum thing.

last week by the way I had to laugh, everyone comes after class for cookies it really is unfair.. however I had to laugh, Adam Orr came in to get cookies. He since left the 3rd ward and went over to the 5th ward. YEAH I know.

anyway I was asked to talk tomorrow and well Karl asked when I wanted to speak, I said put me last because I can cut my talk in half or add to it.. I can come up with something. I am not one with out words. LOL. Yes mother I hear you laughing at me right now. (even from Idaho I can hear you).

So I have been going over and over and over what I was going to talk about.. and I found something that I said I was going to use if I was asked to talk, its called the mouse story.

A mouse looked through the crack in the wall

to see the farmer and his wife opening a package.

"What food might this contain?" The Mouse wondered.

he was devastated to discover it was a mousetrap.

Retreating to the farmyard, the mouse proclaimed the warning.

"There's a mousetrap in the house!

There's a mousetrap in the house!"

The Chicken clucked and scratched,

raised her head and said,

"Mr Mouse, I can tell this is a grave concern to you,

but it is of no consequence to me.

I cannot be bothered by it."

the mouse turned to the pig and told him,

"There is a moustrap in the house!

There is a mousetrap in the house!"

The pig sympathized, but said,

"I am so very sorry, Mr Mouse,

but there is nothing I can do about it but Pray.

Be assured you are in my prayers."

The mouse turned to the cow and said,

"There is a mousetrap in the house!

There is a mousetrap in the house!"

The Cow Said, "Wow, Mr Mouse.

I am sorry for you, but it's no skin off my nose."

So the mouse returned to the house, head down and dejected,

to face the farmer's mousetrap alone.

That very night a sound was heard throughout the house---

like the sound of a mousetrap catching its prey.

The farmer's wife rushed to see what was caught.

in the darkness, she did not see it was a venoumous snake.

which the tail the trap had caught.

The snake bit the farmer's wife.

The farmer rushed her to the hospital and

she returned home with a fever.

Well Everyone knows you treat a fever with FRESH chicken soup,

so the farmer took his hatchet to the farmyard for the soup's main Ingredient.

But the wife's sickness continued,

so friends and neighbors came to sit with her around the clock.

To feed them, the farmer had to butchered the pig.

The famrer's wife did not get well; she died.

So many people came to her funeral,

the farmer had the cow slaughtered

to provide enought meat for all of them.

The mouse looked upon it all from his crack in the wall with great sadness.

So the next time you hear someone is facing a problem

and think it doesn't concern you, remember---

When one of us is treatened, we are all at risk.

we are all involved in this journey called life.

we must keep an eye on one another.

Each of us is a vital thread in another person's tapestry;

Our lives are woven together for a reason.

One of the best things to hold onto in this world is a friend.

Remember I just want to be a little church mouse.. I have said it over and over and over again. I just want to be a little church mouse, and not be praised for anything or just be a servant and thats all. But you all know that will never happen.

Ok I will write more later on what I come up with.

Dolly Parton was on Oprah

I LOVE DOLLY PARTON... I just LOVE HER! I dont think I could ever get enough of her. Thanks Jen for the wonderful memories of going to Dollywood.

I just loved her.
THAT is all I have to say... if you did not see Oprah today you missed a tear jerker. Just awesome!

Go DOLLY!!!!

Wednesday's class

now this goes against everything I believe in. It might be to much for some of you to handle so I am just putting htat out there. ITs my feelings and thoughts as I write somethings out.



a few years ago.. Oprah has a special on which was called State of the Union- Jennifer Boylan story. Sorry I cant place the web site on here I still do not know how to do that. THe booy Was called She's not there, a life in two genders. Jennifer was Jim and was transformed into Jennifer.



This class tested my faith and I will have to tell you I have gone with the spirit of the law. So with that being said.. I really want you to tell you that I am not a supporter of this and I Had so many questions. So on Wednesday, we had quest speakers Brenna who was married has 3 kids, 52 years old, Brenna was A MAN to start out with, so here we have a man that transformed to a female, so I have to call Brenna HER because that is what she is now. so in 1990, (HIS)her wife said that she was not happy in the marriage and wanted out and came out of the closet. so bear with me here... We have a husband and wife... 3 kids, the family was broken and we now have a man that is not happy in his life and a woman not happy in her life. Brenna deside that she wanted to be a woman. now the story gets even better.. She become a you got it. a Lesbian. So this just open a whole new can of worms. she becomes a woman, meets this woman and has a "civil" agreement. now are you ready for the next part. Her partner a female becomes RYAN. Yes now Ryan is a female that becomes a man.



OK where am I going with this, what am I trying to say, WHAT am I thinking. OK here are a few questions I was thinking, trust me as soon as this class was over I was out the door and talking to Weslene about this topic. It had me very hostile. YES yes I was just about to explosed.



Its not that I am a biget or that I dont support friends or anyone that is associated with me.. but here is a few questions I wanted to have answered and well I kept my mouth shout.



1. What do you think your Heavenly Father would say or think?

2. How dose your parents feel about this transformation of yourself?

3. WHY?

4. Are you really happy, know that you are not who you were created?



I mean my mind was racing and I just listened.. It was what was it.. NOT REAL. I hear the same thing "I WAS BORN THIS WAY", " I was always knew I was".

I know that this is not who I am and I will tell you. I have so many friends that are gay and I support them because I love my friends and I love them for who they are. I have family members that are gay. You know I can handle that .

My question is where is it right to change what you were given. Do you understand what I am saying.

I love people. and I know I will be dealing with this the rest of my life and if I am going to be a social worker I must be opened minded and not judgemental.

I understand that this is not who I am. I know who I am and I love my friends and I just had to write this out.

Hope you understand, I am not trying to judge here, I am just expressing my feelings.

210.. wow I cant believe I have that much to say

Yesterday was one of those days that I should have just stayed in bed. Really.. I should have just stayed in bed, but I made a denist appointment for 9. I really did not want to go and take care of a little cavity that I had. plus I had one in the front tooth root.. I was freaking out. I think I have spent over $15,000-$20,000 on this tooth so far in my life.. that is a new car. nice thing for insurance. So I left the new denist work on the tooth. I told him I was scared he was going to mess it up. I said I have a good lawyer. SO far it looks better than what the old one did and its just the temp. LOL

talking about Lawyers.. I need to fire mine, I am still having neck pains from my car accident in september. the PIP has ran out and well I went to a new chriopractor which my insurance (personal) wont cover it. MAKES me mad that these insurance company cant just get it on the ball.. I was noticing that when I went to my old chiropractor he would charge me $25 a visit, as soon as I had the car accident he started charging my insurance company $175 a visit.. is something wrong here.

Drs and Lawyers and insurance companies are making way to much money off me. REALLY!

anyway enough of that

I got 12 more tomato plants planted and about 30 zucchini plants. Yeah i know that is alot but i think bread is going to baked in the fall.

I love my garden it is a stress release for me. and my stress level is super high!

besides that this has been my life.
OK my mind just lost it so off until the next time!

Another update for May 2010

Seeing that Everytime I start putting in a title for my blog, it comes up with so many that I have already used.

I just feel like writing tonight as I am baking cookies for my lesson, and asking myself.. DO you go over board a little Scott.

I mean I teach once a month and when I dont have food well I feel that its not me who is teaching. I need to over come this. I will tell you right now I will have cookies left over because it is peanut butter cookies I am making and they are not the fast going one. They like Chocolate Chip.. I know that. Well that to darn bad.

So I am having my favorite people over tomorrow night for dinner and it's grill season.. SO that is where I am cooking. The store had corn on the cob for sale so.. YES I bought some. so that with meat and pasta salad and a jello salad and strawberry shortcake scott style should be plenty...

I just freak out not having enough.

I am just a freak what can I say.

Quick Update

So Wednesday was the day I had the most trouble with. MID-TERMS and Tests and Video's and well.. It just was not a good day!

We started off with a test in Sociology which was not all that bad but seeing that I was already stressing about that test and then the midterm in the Gender class you can see a fast down hill plung for me.

So the next class was the Sex Ed class and I have not had any problems learning or viewing or talking about this subject until child birth. OK can you say PASSOUT! I got so sick that I just about passed out made it outside to the cold air in just the right amount of time. YES, YES I did. Would not have been that bad if It was not so darn hot in the room. LOL

and the fact that I had already been stressed YEAH this school stuff... so I made it back into class and finished up in time to go study for my mid term... WHICH I might add I was not happy about. I had all the notes I could fit on one piece of paper and well.. still was not enough. I did my best.

I got to work in time to hear KATE moan and groan that they are not giving her the flowershop and that is just one big nightmare I am so glad I only work part time.

So Wednesday night I was tired and fell a sleep around 10.. to be wide awake at 3 am and couldnot go back to sleep do you see a problem here. 3 AM is a little early. around 7:30 I laid down and fell asleep for about 20 minutes before the alarm went off that I forgot to turn off.. LOL so I got up and it was a day of racing around.

Susan sometimes thinks because it is my day off that its her day to have me... I agreed to breakfast which turned into a walmart trip which turned into lunch which turned into me not getting home until 2 which turned into me staying up until 11.. do you see why I was getting tired by this point.

The best part was i did not have class in the AM for both of the classes because the proffessor had to take a personal day which gave me time to work on my Elder's Quourm lesson.. which I am almost done with.

last night I only worked 5 hours and came home finished up the lesson. and went to bed. at midnight. but for some odd reason I was thinking I was on the Jerry Springer show yesterday with all the DRAMA in the store and well I hate it I dont need any other drama in my life. I cause to much in my own life to deal with any more.

So this morning I was wide awake at 5 and for some odd reason... the stress has gotten to me. I worked in the yard all morning to smell the flowers and just play in the dirt is just fun for me.

I have to get ready for my class tomorrow, cookies still to bake. but I think I have the lesson down. and well that is my exciting life.

:) Dont worry I am still loving school and still very happy... Only working 20 hours a week sucks!

as I was going over my lesson I found something I forgot about...


"We all sit in the shade of trees that someone else planted"

" We may only see one float at a time where as God see the whole parade"

Love you all

Really I should know now not to answer the phone

So I have been in my ward for 4 years now.. I have yet to give a talk. This is why I should not answer the phone when I see its Dan Lear or Karl Herick.

So Tuesday Night I aswered the phone and it was DAN LEAR.. Me being the smart one that I am said, NO I dont have a family to home teach, Yes I need a new comp, Yes I need a new list and YES I am being released from teaching Elder's Quourm to his answer well good We will see you at 7:30 when a member of the Stake Presidency and I come to Visit.... LOL Really so that just set me on a high trying to get the house picked up and a cake baked and well trying to get everything done FAST! Which by the way it was Dan and the stake Secretary so they got lot of cake!

So here it is Sunday and I see Karl name on my phone picked it up and its was Karl asking what I thought of Confernece today and we were talking .... and he says I have a favor to ask of you.. I said sure what is it. "Will you talk in church on the 23rd." SO once again I am called upon. I can almost pick my topic.. Maybe Revenece in the Chapel...

but I asked to be the last speaker that way I can cut down or add to if the time allows. LOL...

So I just have to know not to answer the phone sometimes. and then to top it all off I have a feeling a new calling is coming my way.... REALLY

Reverence is requested in the chapel

So can I just say that was A big topic tonight at the Stake Conference Elder Kenneth Johnson,
so the very first thing he started out was that if we are to recieve revelation we need to be reverent when we are in the chapel. HE was fist on pupit... So I think things might be changing when we go into our chapel.

He started out with questions and asked the sister's for questions. there were a few good ones. so a young single sister asked how she could serve more... 2/3 of our stake is single.

so instead of Elder Johnson answering the questions he would pick a member of the stake to answer them.

anyway President London made his comments and elder Johnson got up and made comment o 3 Nephi 11:14-17; 3 Nephi 17: ; 3 Nephi 18:36; 3 Nephi 28:1 "one by one".

talked about Brother Millet and Brother Hall, and praying and dividing food.

I was thinking Activity theme could be "one by one".

Then we talked about Value of coming to church.
President Thacher talked about Faith and "Why not just be a good person"
D&C 42:61
once againg Elder Johnson mentioned that Every meeting is to be reverenced to recieve Revelation.
D&C 101:1
D&C 138:56
and the value of coming to church
3 Nephi 9:20; D&C 88:33; D&C 44:2

Sister Moffet (Mission President's Wife) Picked Balance in your life
-Prayer as a family
-Read Scpriture as a family
-FHE
-Dinner she made comment that they always had dinner as a family, it might not be until 7 at night but they had dinner as a family
-Date night every Friday night

and I as she was talking she made comment that she always had to sit alone with the family and well... I was thinking FRONT ROW DAVIS FAMILY

ELder Johnson made comment from President Hickley Jan 2004 leadership on rejoice in the power of the Savior page 22/23
4 fold
1st family
2nd Employeement
3rd Lord's Work
4th Self

There is more that I will post later!

Good Morning Sunshine

Yeah tell me about it, it is raining but I am in one of those wonderful Sunshining moods.

I have not been sleeping well at all. I go to bed around midnight or 1 or 2 and I am up by 7:30-8 everyday.. Yeah sounding like mother here more and more.

So last night I tried something new.. Calms Forte it seemed to put me to sleep but I was wide awake at 6 this morning..

So today is the last Saturday I have off. I am sad. I miss the idea of having to go back to work. I wanted to stay off.

Its been a test of my faith that I will be able to pay my bills on time. FREAKING me out thats for sure.

besides that School is going great and I am still loving it. I am so open to new ideas and what things mean. Yesterday in the gender class we were talking PMS... Now this is a whole different can of worms to open. The study/article we had to read well I was getting madder and madder at reading it because it seemed it was written by a male on the topic of pms. and to find out it was a woman who wrote it. wow My comment was that if I was a woman I would be mad if I had to read a man's writting like that. LOL
and how did the teacher start the class off..., DOLLY PARTON PMS song. LOVED IT!

I know I love Dolly Parton.. My dream woman!

Well today I think I am going to listen to some more of Dr Bob, Teacher of the other classes and get homework done so that tomorrow I can have a nice stake conference and just relax before dinner.