Why is life the way it is

Ok I wish I had a million dollars...
Yeah I really do... there are so many times I want to help people and I just cant. It's not that I want to give them money or buy them things but just help them out. You know like Oprah. Yeah as hard as it is for me to say that come on you know she dose do some wonderful things.

Ok here is the story... why... Tonight was stake priesthood at church and I went but instead of staying for the ice cream bars, I went to see Ben. (working) and on Sunday nights I usually take dinner to him. and seeing that I am not having Carbs or refind sugars this week. We had a nice salad... anyway... in walks a man asks to see a room and then we will be back have to check out another hotel... our joke is yeah you will be back (CHEAP HERE) well we were making a joke when he said he had triple A card... Ben made the comment Yeah right, and I said no he has one... I had one since age 17.

anyway... they came back because it is a cheap hotel. well ben sent him to get the card we had our comments and saying he has one and ben saying no... anyway..

came back saying they could not find it because the car is a mess and they are moving her for school from salt lake...

see where this story is going... Salt Lake.. I cant stand... I know I know. Utah is just not for everyone... and I am so glad I have 3 sisters that can handle it...

any way we are making small talk and yes they are members and looking for housing and lucky I have housing avaiable... price might be a little high for them but its a house. (not with me) but this is where sometimes I just want to be able to help more people out... do you know what i mean. I want to be able to have people come up to me and say hey I need a place for the night or something like that... do you know what i mean...

I want to say here is a $100 put it to good use. or hey let me get that bill for you.. or come stay with me..

I want a big house with lots of room... Yeah i know what that is called a bording house.. but a bed and breakfast would be so cool....


Why is it that I have to be lower class working for every penny I have and living pay check to pay check...

I dont really want for anything I have enough junk in my life that I need NOTHING but I just wish I could do more for people...

I know its that Christ-like love I have...



Oh not to get off the story of what I was talking about but .... here are two stories I have to tell to go along with this...

My Chriopractor is a member of the church I only go once in a blue moon anymore because I just dont need to go anymore... I feel GREAT!

The other day I went... and you know what he said to me... "Scott there is something about you that just wants me to be around you" I have not hear that from someone since my mission and I came home a MAN... "THANKS MOM"

and the other thing is Kay Brown from PA I called her the other day to say hi... which by the way Davis family she sends her love to each of you and for your kindness to her at PV Elemetary.

Well I started looking for people and calle maragary Kelz... 79 years old now. and well I had a wonderful time talking to her today... she asked about the davis' and my closeness with them... I said I could never had ask for a family that would take me in like they did... I said Mom and Dad are always there for me when I need them and they are always there to listen to whatever I want to say.. I also filled her in on all of you... But its just that sometimes I know I touch someones life but I dont know what i did or how I did it...


what is the old saying... you may just be one in the big world but to one you may be the world....

something like that... If anyone know what I just was trying to type there please tell me what it is to be...

anyway I try and well if I just had a little more I wish I could give a little more... 110% is not enough for me sometimes... I want to be able to do more.

Anyway I am off to bed, just had to give you my two cents worth tonight...
Love you all and thanks for being the world to me.