Sad spot... and a little depressed

So today was hard enough because it was fast and testimony meeting at church... but it was just a little harder on me because...... I just have to say the tickets are bought... I wish... My families are leaving me for a short time. WOW

Its something else because almost 2 years ago I wrote the same thing...

"Ok Everyone knows I do not do well with Good Bye's, But I do them.. Well because its apart of life.


Now I am not going to cry..... YEAH RIGHT! Last night I had the Crosby's come over before they were done packing so that I could get there hand prints in stepping stones. Yeah Its a new Idea and I always need stepping stones and they will always be apart of my garden that way."


Last Monday I got to do the Squires hand prints...  they have touched my life.... I really dont know why...I am so depressed about this....

that I am re-typing the same thing that I wrote 2 days ago..

It's not the fact that I know that they are a phone call away, or a facebook moment.. It's just the fact that I have gotten to know them, serve with them, teach them, learn from them and love them.

I had to laugh today because I texted Ben and said.. Why did you have to introduce me to this ward.

I knew that this day was coming, I knew it would be hard and yes... it was. (I will post pictures soon)


SO here it is Wednesday. I ended up having to go to bed and did not finish posting what I wanted to.
It was not an easy good bye. BUT I want you to know I did it with out tears because I prepared myself . Monday I had to go over to the Squires because they had made me a very special apron.. "we "HEART" uncle scott.. and their hand prints. It was very special and will hold a place in my home!
YES that moment was hard for me, I breathed deeply. and THen I had to say good-bye.
I did it fast and quickly, I said good bye to the kids and headed to the car.... AHHH as I backed out mallory was waving good bye and as soon as I pulled out of the drive I was all tears.

NOW here we are... YES I have a little depression.. I do this cycle. IT will get better. Here is the best comment from JEN!...

Which Are you?



A Reason, A Season, or A Lifetime?
People always come into your life for a reason, a season and a lifetime.
When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, or to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or even spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend to you, and they are. They are there for a reason,you need them to be.
Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die, Sometimes they just walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilleed; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.
When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn.
They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season. And like Spring turns to Summer and Summer to Fall, the season eventually ends.
LIFETIME, relationships teach you a lifetime of lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway);, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas in your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being part of my life.....
Author Unknown


and then... other things just keep happening and Susie Bates wrote to me today.. After I said what was going on and her comment was..
Hey, good to hear from you! Sorry that life has thrown you a nasty curve. You have risen above so much adversity in your life and I know you'll triumph again! I enjoy reading your posts... Wish we lived closer and could visit. Just remember I think of you fondly and wish you all the very best
and I remember when they left State College and How I felt then and how I felt when I left my mission... Jen and Tracy and Brenda was at that last supper at a very nice seafood resturant and I could not eat.. I had to leave...  I was leaving my place of love, hate, found friends and loved one.

Now why do I say all this at this time and repeat myself... it came to me after Jen had comment on my life.. I am here for a reason, I am here for a lesson, I am here for a life time to "OVERCOME"more adversity and heart ache and well to learn more.

I love my SEATTLE... I am not leaving anytime soon. I am here to stay!  With all the change that happens in my ward... I love it. I love the fact that someday someone else will come into it again and I will get to learn, grow, feed, teach, learn, and serve and love someone new.

I love you Squires. I am so excited for you and DR Squires when I need meds you better be able to help. (JUST JOKING)

Seeing this, I'm remindinded of the poem, "A Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime" (http://www.robinsweb.com/inspiration/reason_season.html). Scott-you love so easily and so openly and give so much to those that come in your life...whether it ...be a reason, season, or lifetime.. Just as one family leaves, you need to take those loves and memories and cherish them...and look forward to the ones to come--the area is blessed to have you as someone that's always there to welcome new families and make them feel at home.... you are blessed to ALWAYs be having people come into your life--even if they may rotate out ... :-)