You make your life what it is....

So tonight as I was sitting back watching my families and all the joy they have been to me and thinking.. what could I have done better.. What could I have done better in my life. Many of you dont know what my dream was in life. I just wanted to be married, have a house in the good old valley, and grow old with children and grandchildren and sit on the front porch on a porch swing and just live my life out... OK I always wanted the front porch to sit on.. I dont know why I had such a small vision of what my life could ever have been. I quess I would have to say it is what I was raised with, watching the Mark family or the Tice family. I know that there was always more. As Jen said one time to me.. You grabbed a life and you ran.. and you ran far. I would owe that part to the Davis family. Tonight I had a small vision of something of what I had always wanted. I would not say that my family is disfuntional..... it was a family and when mother died "OUR FAMILY" died. I am telling you our family died. We had no longer done the things that our family had the things that I had been raised with were dead. So as I was sitting there tonight, I had just taught a message on optimism and is the glass half full or half empty, and I was thinking to myself.. wow I have such a full glass. YES I live with my glass full most of the time. I can sometimes think it is half empty but for the main part. I am a FULL glass and not half full but a full glass. I saw what I was sent here for. I know that they might not realize what they are to me. And I am so sad I have to live so far away from not only my family but some old friends as well.. BUT I am living a life that I am to be living. I do not know why But I have some great friends that will ALWAYS be my family. We were having a laugh tonight of how many times Ted has taken me to the hospital, and why I call Ted.. I made the joke that Ted is the only one that Answers the Phone when he see me calling. I dont know why.. But He has been a great friend so I want to thank him for that. Tonight as each family was sitting there, I saw my family. I saw the family that I need. I am not sure why the Lord has placed me in Seattle 3000 miles away from my sister, my brother, niece and nephew, and my great nephew and niece, and the grave of my parents. but this I am for sure... I know why the Lord had put me where I am at this Moment of time. Sure I know deep in my hearts of hearts I sat In Heaven before I came to this earth, and Said to my Heavenly Father. I will go and do they work for you on earth and I will go where you call me to go. OK I know it sounds like the song I be what you want me to be dear Lord.. But as I am doing this.. I am also learning I have a lesson to teach and to learn. Back to the families. I know I sat with them in Heaven and said to them.. Dont worry we will meet again some day and I promise you I will do What ever it takes to make sure we return to Our Heavely Father. I want to thank each of them for coming back into my life. I am feeling the time as they will be leaving me soon because School is ending and life must go on. I just really want to say Thank you for being the friends and family that you are to me. Thank you for your friendship and for the love you offer. YOU guys are the best and I will always be GRATEFUL for your love and support.