God has reasons we dont understand

OK...crying here... That is a quote from Dolly Parton... Ms Dolly herself...

So I am a lover of Dolly, Jen a few years ago took me to Dollywood and I will always be so greatful for that time I spent there with Jen.

So why am I crying over this I am a big baby.. LOL really it is so funny.. I love Oprah and some others and I saw Dolly was going to be on the Nate Berkus Show.. SO I taped it.. Bad thing for me to watch at 11PM on a tuesday night when I already and in one of SCOTT's moods.
I am not going to say anything more about the show.. you will have to find it and watch it.. It was awesome.. SO Ms Dolly... "I will always love you"...

and I am a baby because tonight I got to go See "A Christmas Story, The Musical!" It was AWESOME... here is where I loose it...

THe spirit of Chirstmas is so true... SO as I was waiting to go into the theatre.. The Salvation Army Band was playing outside.. and well Seattle has a very special spirit around it right now.. THe lights in the trees and the windows decked out in holiday flavor... It is just awesome..

TOnight was one of the first times in a long time that I wished I had someone special to be with.. I dont know why... all of a sudden.. a hole is needing to be filled.. I am going to be 39.... and well I might be missing something in my life...

My friend Sharron says "Life Happens when your planning something else"! Well Lets start planning something else because I want my life to happen. I have been living and enjoying who and what I am.. I just dont understand sometimes what my purpose is...

I have made the comment many times that everytime I am in the temple I take extra time and I ponder and think and try to study..

I have not been like this for a few weeks because I just am trying to live...

Anyway after today.. I am ready to say Good night... But I want to say I love you all!!!