God has reasons we dont understand

OK...crying here... That is a quote from Dolly Parton... Ms Dolly herself...

So I am a lover of Dolly, Jen a few years ago took me to Dollywood and I will always be so greatful for that time I spent there with Jen.

So why am I crying over this I am a big baby.. LOL really it is so funny.. I love Oprah and some others and I saw Dolly was going to be on the Nate Berkus Show.. SO I taped it.. Bad thing for me to watch at 11PM on a tuesday night when I already and in one of SCOTT's moods.
I am not going to say anything more about the show.. you will have to find it and watch it.. It was awesome.. SO Ms Dolly... "I will always love you"...

and I am a baby because tonight I got to go See "A Christmas Story, The Musical!" It was AWESOME... here is where I loose it...

THe spirit of Chirstmas is so true... SO as I was waiting to go into the theatre.. The Salvation Army Band was playing outside.. and well Seattle has a very special spirit around it right now.. THe lights in the trees and the windows decked out in holiday flavor... It is just awesome..

TOnight was one of the first times in a long time that I wished I had someone special to be with.. I dont know why... all of a sudden.. a hole is needing to be filled.. I am going to be 39.... and well I might be missing something in my life...

My friend Sharron says "Life Happens when your planning something else"! Well Lets start planning something else because I want my life to happen. I have been living and enjoying who and what I am.. I just dont understand sometimes what my purpose is...

I have made the comment many times that everytime I am in the temple I take extra time and I ponder and think and try to study..

I have not been like this for a few weeks because I just am trying to live...

Anyway after today.. I am ready to say Good night... But I want to say I love you all!!!

Candy, Candy, Candy

So Yesterday We planned a day of candy making... Yes Candy making indeed.. SO with that being said...I could careless to eat any more candy for a few days but for now.. WE had a lot of fun! It is always good to be with family and create master pieces of work!

and when it was all over and done with... It was a fun day and we had a lot of chocolates...!!! They were yummy!!!

Sunday Night Dinner

Thanksgiving Dinner!

well for some odd reason I dont know how to down load my pictures in orders so... here you go!


The Stuffin... This was my pan of stuffin..

This is the turkey in the roasting pan... I went to pull the stuffin out of the pan and the turkey fell apart!

This is my table.. COOL Setting

Sweet Potatoes.. FRESH ones.

The green bean cassarole

The 24 pound Turkey!

the 10 pounds of mashed potatoes... THey had one to many lumps in the for me!!

Baby its cold out side,

So this morning I woke up to SNOW... YEAH I do not get along with snow... Love it if I dont have to do anything but SLEEP and I could have seeing I had nothing planned but school. BUT I think I was like a little child waiting for the tv to say... North Seattle Community College CLOSED!! YEAH lucky for me I can drive in the snow but it is still the idea because I was not ready for today... I had a thesis to write and I had to come up with the ending... (STILL working on it)

SO as I was watching the news I got the first email saying because of the roads... SEATTLE please learn to drive... if you do not know how to drive stay off the roads...
So I went out side and took a few pictures... little did I know what was in store for me today.



My back yard had a little snow... not much.. really just a nice little dusting of snow..
So after cleaning off the car and warming it up. I was off to an appointment.. Which I was kinda of disappointed with because I was early and the dr was late... well he never did come in...

so I did a few more little things and said ok I am going home and clean.. so I did it.. I cleaned out 3 cupboards. YES it was nice..


So a few hours of cleaning and Hemma came to clean and well we were able to make massive work load light and it is so nice to see the house sparkle...

SO by 5pm Seattle had a little problem... that is right... SNOW, WIND, and SNOW and well... this is what my drive way and my planters look like.. I had to get the snow shovel out.

BACK yard again.. the water is slowly stopping.. its really is fun!

BRING on the snow.... this is the front street.. YEAH you cant see anything this is how bad it is.

On the bright side... I dont have school the rest of the week.. I am working for the next few days.. However I have a feeling that if it keeps snowing Holiday SALES are going to TANK!!! not a good thing...

250 wow

I have posted 250 mini minutes to my blog..

right now I am sitting back and eatting fried potatoes and onions wow I have not had fried potatoes and onions in years. I just dont know why I got hungry all off a sudden for them.

It's not like they are super hard to make they really are easy... I just dont know why I dont do it more often.

we had stake conference today and what a sweet time I had. I had the Surtarks with me and I love every minute that I get to spend with them. It was funny because when I talking to people before I conference an older couple came and sat behind me. Now its not that it was a big deal, I had my coat on the pugh, and everyone came by is this seat taken... I hated to say YES but I had to. SO I got the cars and crayons and paper out to make it look like they were off.

Well this older man that was behind me was talking about being in the university wards and I said I was too.. LOL he said oh you waiting for your wife and kids. I was like NO.. whats with the toys.... I said I am waiting for my FAMILY...

NUT JOB HERE...

I said I was waiting for my family, I am so Happy that I really did not need to explain that I was single and have no family members but I have a family. Thankfully sister smith who was also in the converstation said Oh Scott has a family... He has our ward family...

Its so true... If I was OLD I would be the grandfather of the ward. I would be the one that the kids still run to for special treats after church.. I am going to miss my "FAMILY" when they leave in June... but for now... They are my family. I am so grateful for them and what they mean to me in my life... Not only Ted and Shelby.... but all of the other ones. Lane and Cam, Dan and Susan, Jake and Abby, Kristin and Gavin, Sheila and Karl... well the list could go on and on... I am telling you.. Once again...

BLOOM WHERE YOU ARE PLANTED!!!!

I might never have that family.. The one that I dream of but this one thing I do know... FOR right now... I will take what the Lord is giving me and I am making something of it.

I was talking to Sister Metcalf today and I said like the Crosby... Ben showed me something.. and I am so thankful that he took the time to get to know me because I sure do miss them... I had a very special time with them.

I love the fact that Saydee every Sundays comes looking for me.. I think she is really looking for the suckers but she comes to "OUR FAMILY" pugh... Thanks guys You make my life special...

Oh and never try to have me type when Beauty and the Beast sound track is playing in the back ground and angela Lansbury is singing the song...

TRUE FAMILY!!!


Love to all my family... Matt and Cami, Connie and Steve, Abby and Naki, Ginny, Katie and Matt, Jackie and Russell, Candy and James, Cassie and Steve, and Liz and Albert, Tim...

Each one of you have touched my heart in some way. THANK YOU!!

Mom and Dad thanks agian for searching for the truth....!!

Cheese cakes and song lyrics

Yes this is the best name for this posting.. Right now I have this cheesecake in the oven it seems like it is taking forever to bake... WOW i typed that and the buzzer went off... LOL It is really taking forever for me to bake it tonight.

So It's around 10 pm and I try to end my day by looking at everyones blog.. HEY its a Saturday Night and I dont have a life. REALLY I dont have a life.

SO I always enjoy the fact that everytime I pull Abby's blog up a song pops up and I listen to it in the back ground as I am doing my blog or reading her posting or whatever it might be. SO tonight I started listening to the lyrics. I do that now and then Hear a song but do not listen to what the song is saying or is trying to say.

OK i know I am getting ahead of myself but maybe I am learning something from this class I am taking right now.

now seeing I have to type the song out bear with me... I still dont know how to copy and paste.
I ate the glue when I was a kid

It started out as a feeling

which grew into a hope.

which then turned into a quite though

which then turned into a quite word

and then that word grew louder and louder

til it was a battle cry

I'll come back

when you call me

No need to say good bye

Just because everything is changing

doesnt mean it never

been this way before

All you can do is to try to know

who your friends are

as you head off to the war

Pick a star on the Dark Horizon

and follow the light

You'll come back when it's over

no need to say good bye.

You'll come back when it's over

no need to say good bye.

Now we're back to the begining

It's just a feeling and no one knows yet

but just because they can't feel it too

Doesnt mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger

til they're before your eyes

You'll come back when they call you

no need to say good bye.

I know Abby has a different meaning for this song, and it just hit me some of what the words are talking about. BOY I wish I could write like this about the papers I have to write. It would make my life a lot better.. I guess it is that sometimes I understand things at different times in my life.

But I started to listen and had to re-play the song a few times to get it. I painted a picture in my mind of a war scene. this war scene was not of that of the wars we are having today but it was a war scene of loved ones that had gone before and are fight to keep us (the one here on earth) on the straight and narrow path. Protecting us, helping us, teaching us. I just got goose bumps.
I can see this scene as clear as day. maybe its that ahhh Haaa moment that Oprah always talks about. But I got it.

I know the wheels are always turning but sometimes it just takes a little more work for me to GET IT!

I just put the cheese cake on for another 15 minutes. Thats a total now of 1 hour and 15 minutes of cooking... I am thinking is it done yet.... or can I leave it alone for another 5. But like cooking if I dont do it right it wont turn out right. SO I am off to check the cheesecake and hoping for a great turn out.

Well for now......

ahhhh haaaaaa

I think that is the right way to write it... I messed up big time tonight.. I am not a writer... I cant really write... and I have been saying this the whole semester and to night I was talking to my professor and I said I cant always think it but I can write it.. she jump over the table with excitement.

ahhh Haaa yes I just can not believe I said it. believe me... I have to admit I think I can if I put my mind to it.

I have been feeling a little crazy the past few days. a little stressed... I have been having some massive headaches and I am not sure why.. but I working on that..

cant think anymore tonight... my eyes are playing the sleep game so I must go!

Funk and breakdown 103/104

YES I am still in the funk and I think it might have a lot to do with the stress in my life right now.. I had a breakdown this morning and it wasn't a pleasant sight. I just have to find out what and where and why and who and all those questions you need to ask yourself. WHY ME.. and then I have to turn that around and say WHY NOT ME!

103.5 happened before class tonight and I had to just leave and splash cold water in my eyes.. the worst part about that is the darn auto sinks that turn on when you walk up to them its warm water.. LOL come on I think I still like to control my own water... and then break down 104 happened after class... I am such a mornon sometimes.. I just broke a little and that did not help me any..

i did talk a few things out.... which I am trying to still do.. that is why this blog is coming up. i see it a little clearer now but I am still needing to work on some of these issues. YES Scott has issues.

funny how I just loose myself in some things and others I just cant deal with.


And then to think I lost my mind I had made 6 pies yesterday. 3 pumpkin and 3 chocolate french silk.
I put the chocolate ones in the frig out in the shead and we ate one of the pumpkin ones and I took one of the pumpkin ones down to the neighbors. (Hey I need the garden rotilled next spring have to keep them on the good side).

Well I went out to the shead to get the pie this afternoon to finish them off with cream.. and there was only two of them out there.. my first thought was those missionaries... to find out it ended up that Ted and Sheby took one which I told them they could. I just flaked it. Tonight they were recieved well at class... who would not like my pie... oh wait.. someone that cant taste a paper bag from last years chili cookoff.. LOL...

Dan made comment that Susan was mad at him because he did not bring her some home so I made sure she had some... so I got a very nice thank you from DAN...

WHY do I do what I do......?????

It's the Life of Scott... so glad your on this ride with me.!!!!

I am in a funk!

Snap out of it she say, or I will come and slap you, never mind SLAP, SLAP, SLAP.... What can I say I am in a funk... Don't ask because I really dont know why.

I am so..... well yes you got the words I been wanting to hear. LOL
I know Scott you crack me up.

SO I have a few people that everytime they see a new single adult its.... SCOTT she could be the one. I love it. LOVE IT! This new one is a cutie I must add.. so we will see if we can get her to come over for dinner and see what my life is like.

I have been working on paper after paper after paper so that is my new life... Maybe that is the funk that I am in...

I just dont know... tell you the truth.. I dont like the funk that I am in... I just want to sit back and cry.. just have a good old cry. Silly as it may be that's what I want to do.

I am always on the edge of it I just have not done it... I dont think I could handle that right now.

and to make life a little bit more pleasent... I have been working with the union and the union has no contract right now and it's not looking good... looking like a strike... WHO can afford a strike.. this is what I want to know. I keep looking at school and seeing I need to better myself and get out of this work force...

anyway... thats me today.. I believe it could be a little stress and its all coming to a head.....

so for now....

funny what you can feel and say

so wednesday night at class i was faced with the question... what are you feeling? yeah I wrote what I was feeling and it came out and well thanks for all the concerns. LOVE the fact that I have family that loves and cares for me and always makes me laugh! I love you guys!

October was here and left really fast.
I was all over the place this last week.. I think it was the fact that I worked in my old shop for the week and found out I really did not want it back and said the spirit of the store is gone.. YEAH I am gone and I have moved on. I still have wonderful friends there but I do not belong there anymore.

It was fun to see all the old customers that I loved come around the corner and look in and see me in the floral department and their eyes got big and tears started! It was awesome. I loved that part of it. But i know I am to be in school and this is the plan right now.

Sunday was so much fun... I spent most of the day cooking... what else is there for me to do on a Sunday. We did a halloween themed meal. everything had to deal with Halloween and I was not talking candy. We had such a fun turn out. From ghost dogs to bloody hand punch. it was cool. you can be so creative when you put your mind to it. I love the fact that people can think outside the box. simple things such as pumpkin cut out flour tortilas with spices on them YUMMY... and I have to laugh that SQUASH is becoming my families favorite thing. LOL they love it. this week we did a squash called the "Sweet Mama" I baked it in the oven with nutmeg and butter that was it and it was eatten up so fast love the fact that something we hated as a kid is now the number one food when we get older.... not to mention how good it is for you.

I love my families that come over.. I see something mom and dad have... its the fact that our family gets together and can have such a wonderful evening. I have some wonderful families. I am so glad they can turn to me when they need to or me to them. they bless my life with out words.

Anyway I am loosing my train of thoughts so I will go for now.....