Ok this might not be the best blog for number 150.
1st I will start out by telling you that the insurance company came back with a offer that I for one was floored by and I took it. $5300. It will be a good down payment on a car. NOW I have to find a car and I have to find a loan.
Thats the good news.
Now the not so good news is I am not feeling like me? I am having neck pains and I am not sleeping worth a darn. DRUGS are my friend.. NOT really.
I am starting to have great days and not so great of days. I go up and down.. maybe right now as I right its not a good day. I quess it is just all the stuff that comes around and things I do and not sleeping and well do you understand it.
I went last night and tonight to see WICKED! It was awesome both times, my only problem is who I went with the second time. I get the jeoulosies... wishing I was with someone else or with anyone that would enjoy the play like it is ment to be enjoyed and not complaining the WHOLE time of all there problems.
AM I ever going to find someone? Really am I ever going to find true happyiness? I am getting a little tired of not having someone. I understand that you have to work on both being single and being married and there are up and downs to that as well and That I can not be selfish!
BUt I want to know when I am going to find myself I guess! Maybe that is what I need to be worried about right now Trying to find myself. I feel alone. I am still doing great spirtiualy but there is something missing and I cant understand what it is.
Well for now I have taken my drugs so I am hoping I can sleep the night and past 6 tomorrow morning.